“But justify me publicly; establish my honor and truth before them all. End all my wickedness, O Lord, and bless all who truly worship God; for you, the righteous God, look deep within the hearts of men and examine all their motives and their thoughts." Psalms 7:8-9
To me this verse brings me back to reality. Sometimes I forget how selfish and unjust I can be. The motives in my heart for the doing the right thing are often wrong. God sees the hearts of men, only he knows what we're truly thinking. I can put a smile and say all the kind words, but if my heart is wrong and I'm actually internally hating then God sees that. It wouldn't matter if I did over a hundred charity services, none of it would matter if I weren't doing it to please God.
Sometimes I think I fool God. I try to set my heart right, but inside I know I have this horrible attitude, and then out of nowhere God reveals himself to me through a simple gesture or an act of humiliation, if that's what it takes. It's so easy to fool others into believing your this super saint, but it's all invalid if the heart isn't truly in it for God. I must remember the importance of my heart because it's not the deed that counts it from where the love comes from.
Lord please forgive me for my incredibly selfish and self absorbed motives. I sometimes stupidly think I can fool you to believe I'm all righteous, but you just humble me just as quickly and I thank you sooo much for that! Lord nothing in this entire world matters except you and I pray you show me path towards a future with you!